Ignoring the problem leads to weight gain..

I'm wondering just how much of this I could have done with out the lap band. It seems that I can still eat what ever I want and I can still *gain* weight with this lap band. I should know for almost 2 months now I've been at almost the exact same weight. I have gained and lost the same 8 pounds TWICE! This morning I was at 206 lbs. I was at 206.5 two months ago. But last month I was hitting 212. It all comes down to what I put in my mouth. If I start eating sugar, bread, pasta--i gain weight. If i start eating low carb again, I lose it. So I'm wondering if I just did the low carb without the band if my results would be just about the same. Did I go through surgery and have this band implanted in me for NO reason? I sure hope not! But...I'm done figuring it out. I am going to stay on my low carb "lifestyle" to get to where I want to get. I know that when I get to my goal I can start adding a little bit of carbs back in but for the most part my life is going to be low carb and I just have to accept that. It sucks but thats how *my* body was made.

I am reading a book called "Faking It". It's not what your thinking. But the book does promote and really great message of loving yourself. Loving your body and actually finding yourself attractive and beautiful. I would suggest every woman who has ever had the thought "I really hate my..." should read this book.

I need to start being more acccountable for my weight loss and for what I eat. Today I have eat a small pack of turkey meat and a cup of coffee so far. This is day 3 of getting "back on the wagon". I have a blue berry Yoplait Light yogart sitting in front of me for a snack pretty soon. I have some slim jims and I have a ceaser salad waiting on me for lunch. Last night I had broiled pork chops and green beans for dinner and a *sugar free* Popsicle for desert. I think those are going to be my saving grace when it comes to needing something sweet! I wish they made sugar free ice cream lol! Oh well, now that I'm forcing my self to be accountable for my weight loss instead of ignoring the problems, maybe some more weight will come off!!